Dougie McLean.Caledonia

a whiskey of a song.
Found myself crying to it tonight.
"if we should become a stranger, know that it would make me more than sad."
u have gone away before i suddenly know it, never to return, for u r not the same person anymore.
still, none of us had ever been the same anyway. knowing it is one, accepting it on someone i have love and trusted from the bottom of my soul (if there is ever one... LOL).
Had been ready for your departure, but not so soon, not this way.
Once upon a time, i fear change.
Had tried to control my own destiny and took things into my own hands.
As time and maturity goes by, I choose to cling and savor each moment, and leave control in god's hands.
After the last two days, the pain had been so deep, so intense, so sharp, i made up my mind to give up something.
Give up is not the best phrase, but this is the problem about words, they have a limit within themselves (that was why i once contemplated giving up blogging, but still, my love for words prevails.....LOL).
So, now, savor moments as it is, with a calm (not the best word either, but it could do for here and now, there's actually no best word. I know, eat the passion fruit as it is).........
So, now, savor moments as it is, with a calm heart, and let the passion fruit leaves as it goes.
Love you, as much as a person who had still had so many flaws and insecurities and bigoted mind.
But then again, it no longer matters. The person who loved and the person who was loved are no longer the same people anyway.