Tuesday, October 29, 2013
Thursday, October 24, 2013
Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are [OFFICIAL VIDEO]
Getting myself totally intoxicated by this song for a short while.
Lol.. what a way to spice up a short moment.
reminder to myself : dun get carried away by music n story,............
LOL..................
Thursday, October 17, 2013
when nothing is said at all
The mind's answer came like a few days ago, I thought not going is to not satisfy the ego's trap, and at the end of the day... The not going itself is the ego trap.
Albeit the fact that it is a never ending cycle until the day this form of my existence die, the act of detoxification and purification of body and soul through practices of breathing exercise and increasing awareness of the body and present, but somehow the whole thing is a well worth the time and energy... Felt like someone pulled a cork out of the nape of my neck last night,and the hot air had been sizzling out for an hour or two since the exercise.
Wondering about a thing or two.
I had things to say, but it is like not necessary as it is like passing emotions of joy, comments on stuff, thoughts about things. Yet, somehow, just couldn't let go the idea of having something to say.............
LOL....
Really, the act of looking for someone to say something and share it with some people on similar frequencies is actually an act of the ego thingy looking for food... But then again, it is fun. ;p
Seems like i am a doomed mortal. Destined to roam earth in this earthy form for quite a while more then.
Wait till my dharma sisters get back from their intensive studies, LOL.... My cultivation of the way is of my own, i could do with this reminder like ten times a day....
Friday, October 11, 2013
Bebel Gilberto - Tanto Tempo [2000] | Completo full album
nice.................. can listen to this whole noon, as a background ambience..............
Wednesday, September 25, 2013
when l was ur man
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JeM65Kh--xM&feature=youtube_gdata_player
love the way they had rearranged this song..
Monday, September 23, 2013
运作模式
没完没了的一直一直。
看真一点，不也是现象界的生生不息吗？
莫以自我批判好好坏坏高高低低。
有那么大的空间容许吗？
可以吗？
可以接受那不同，而非批判高低美丑输赢吗？
每每个刹那，每每个历缘对境。
法法相扣。生生不息。
流动变化、生灭。
活于脑袋这方便皈依处，充满了变数。
痛苦始于不接受。。。。不爽，不愿意。不甘心、怕怕怕怕怕。。。。。。。。。
转个弯，一切本来就是完整的了。
心、要摇摆波动多久才接受让境界流过，苦就何时止息。
Sunday, September 15, 2013
Saturday, August 24, 2013
Celtic Woman - Caledonia
Loving this totally as if I had just heard it for the first time.
The perfect line?
If i should become a stranger, know that it would make me more than sad.....
finally! my makeup brand: em michelle phan
Somehow when the message had been written and pronounced from the heart, it would always do exactly that, and much beyond. It touches the heart, and would spread, much deeper and beyond.
Good Luck Michelle.
Thursday, August 22, 2013
Arioli The rainy day is here.
Sunday, August 11, 2013
Hindi Movie - Taare Zameen Par [2007]
A great movie well worth our time. ^^
It goes straight into the heart....
Saturday, August 10, 2013
Wind Chimes in a Bakery - Episode 4: The Lost and the Found
A beautiful piece of video that actually puts a beautiful meaning into cyber sharing and recording everything.
Guess I have the same urge too, when I look at him smiling and laughing from the bottom of his heart, all I wanted to do is to snap that moment into eternity.
I myself do not know what holds for me tomorrow, let alone for him. So, so be it.
Friday, August 9, 2013
Gone gone gone. acoustic Version...
Wednesday, July 24, 2013
big girls dun cry.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zUUYHlI_qNs&feature=youtube_gdata_player
放手， 是送给自已的礼物。
呵。^^
Lovin U...
She sang it so relaXedly it's a joy listening to her.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YVhWPMd5TqE&feature=youtube_gdata_player
my immortal. a real live singer.
Sunday, July 21, 2013
Tuesday, July 2, 2013
Thursday, June 27, 2013
Sunday, June 23, 2013
Monday, June 17, 2013
Sunday, June 16, 2013
Saturday, June 15, 2013
Friday, June 14, 2013
Thursday, June 13, 2013
真的幸福呢！
忽爾想起许多事情，明白。
明白到虽然过去已过去，但当时的幸福是真的温暖过我的心。
我真的很幸运，也很幸福。
非常非常感恩你们的珍惜和真心，很感恩很感恩。
大声的从心底祝福着，感恩着。
祝你们安详，喜悦，快乐，自在。
我这只牛何其幸运，幸福啊。
我们大家都会好好的，大家都尽力了。都、没了愦憾。
打从心底、温暖的、深深的、放下的，感恩着。
爱。
An all time fav of mine.
Watch "Celtic Woman - A New Journey - Scarborough Fair" on YouTube
今天身心的呈现让我大开眼界。
很饿，极饿。
吃不饱，饿着渴着各种味道。
当我闭起眼睛，让自己静下来住内观时，心里浮现了声音，喃喃念着： 当观色无常，如是观者，则为正观。受想行识亦皆如是。
切切的提醒了自己。
当开始观察时，所有故事淡了，忘了。
感恩一切因缘。
极感恩。
毋需无意识的像个乞丐到处乞讨施舍。
感恩。
Saturday, June 8, 2013
Thursday, May 30, 2013
Sunday, May 26, 2013
Eric's Song. Vienna Teng
Watch "Eric's Song - Vienna Teng" on YouTube
As I swayed to the music, it just stuck me when I put my palms together to feel each other.
To feel close, there would be friction. It's part of it all along.
Vienna Teng . Green Island Serenade
Watch "Green Island Serenade-Vienna Teng" on YouTube
Somehow, this song brings tears tonight.
^^ On third thought, much after, he's on that island now, suffering his band practice. LOL.
Vienna Teng . Annie's song
Watch "Vienna Teng - Annie's Song (John Denver cover)" on YouTube
Oh my. She called it an unabashed love song.
You fill up my senses.
Watch "John Denver Annie's Song" on YouTube
This is the first time I know what inspired this song after like umpteenth time listening to it since my last life.
Ironic
Watch "Alanis Morissette - Ironic (Video)" on YouTube
It's a free life
but u're already dead.
feels like home.
Watch "Feels Like Home by Chantal Kreviazuk (lyrics)" on YouTube
There is always Someone in our lives that makes One feels like home.
Leaving on a Jetplane
Watch "Chantal Kreviazuk - Leaving On A Jet Plane" on YouTube
As I watch this video, the memory that he planted a small & short French on my lips came to me.
I was silently weeping in his warm embrace, when he just suddenly kissed me in full public, just like that. It's as if the whole external world had just melted away that moment.
That's the last kiss I'd had from him, till maybe when I finally get to see him again in June.
I miss him so much.
Thursday, May 16, 2013
First attempt on healthy breakfast
Finally told parents about what I wish to do for my life.
Mother had been a great support, dad was somewhat cynical as to whether I could make a proper living out of it.
As to will I be able to live life without being pinched financially.
Well.
What I could learn in my current position would lessen any unnecessary bounds externally. As everyone has their Own agenda & expect an incoming to fit in. Time spent running around would not differ from my current situation except in the form of compensation.
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Monday, May 6, 2013
下雨时，故事
謩然回首，发觉2007年像好遥远以前的事。
六年了．那时是个入学的里程碑、亦是我入社会刚满两年的时候。
那年后发生了许多事。
遇见了很多人事物。
喜怒哀乐彻尝过。
玩了演了吃了那么多虚幻、不知甘心放下了否。
今天拿来提，可见尚未然。
今天的无所事事让我狠狠的反省。
没有了自我欺骗的故事，知道了自己的懒散，还有舍？
你那时说过，不知我是因为你就要离开，所以爱粘你；亦或因为我真的爱粘人。
登登登，答案是，二者都有。
只是，现在我才在字习尚开心田。
每个人都是朋友。 就好了。
好开心。
没有了mba 书本、
没有了小说漫画、
没了故事（现在也是在说故事)
没了你的存在
没了工作的野心
却在发现着一切。
发觉从未认真过。
而在曾懂得的认真里，却只会用力、紧繃。
这在专修时丢了。
而用功，在发现自己的鹦母学语时、
开始逐点崩溃。
原来，认真却也放松、是门学问。
不想卡在文字上，但很爱文字呢。
不知有一天，会不会像 Pi般，连一枝笔一本书都没有了？
Wednesday, May 1, 2013
Thursday, April 25, 2013
Thursday, April 18, 2013
塔罗牌掰掰。
把塔罗牌送给了一位朋友。
感恩她的收留。
塔罗牌的来去总随缘，是有钱也买不到的。
事实上，世事一切用钱买到这观念本身就是个错觉。 钱，只是因缘之一啊。
我生命中两个很珍惜的善知识，竟不约而同在不同的时空，把＂生命的重建＂这本书放进我手里。
每每奇迹被我发现时，心中湧出的感动，非笔墨文字所能形容、表达。
我说、发现奇迹，不是发生。 皆因奇迹是在每每每每个当下、只是我有没有觉察到而已。
所以，决定把这本书好好看完。
再多的各种心情思绪、本身亦是会变会过。 我在学习着在每个当下看到这实相。迷惑的代价原来不是像喝酒，只让自己床
Thursday, April 11, 2013
Thursday, March 28, 2013
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
Friday, March 22, 2013
Thursday, March 21, 2013
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
Tuesday, March 12, 2013
Sunday, March 10, 2013
心情有点，，．
black-flower,jpg.jpg (400×300)
A flower paint a thousand words.
I know what is that feeling.
Yet it is not me. By disowning it, it is understood that thus being present.
只有自己
下雨了。
之前我把我的全世界放在一边，生命几乎只因你而转。
如今你只是网络上一抺存在，而我在面对我的全世界。
好玩。
"我的世界＂从未因我不在而停止转动。一个没有我而能继续存在的世界原来从未是＂我＂的。
没有你我他，只有因缘的存在。
每一个当下。
那么，到底是谁放不下？
哈罗，有人吗？
Saturday, March 9, 2013
Thursday, March 7, 2013
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
Monday, March 4, 2013
Saturday, March 2, 2013
Friday, March 1, 2013
Thursday, February 28, 2013
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
Tides of changes
So many changes. So much laughter, tears, hugs and kisses.
I never thought what had happened could ever be possible.
Nothing could be arranged, even if I thought I could do a lot of things (self delusional.. LOL), arranging car accidents and having one of them a near fatal one is never something that could happened without a hand of god.
I am ever so thankful that we are both alive, and on top of that, we had what we had.
I wonder.
You boarded the flight today, and you know what?
It is only when you had left had I felt the exhaustion deep within my bones, be it that, or that medication.
I had spent so much time with you, disregarding all other elements in my life in a way that is all consuming.
When we laughed together, chatted on and on, and spent all those precious moments in each other's company, know that it is something that could never be replaced, nor replayed.We both knew it.
On top of that, the fact that we are both learning ( i know I am lagging, but still, I am learning) something profoundly mutual in direction, that we are able to face what we had faced, walked through, crying, laughing.
We had ups and downs, but after a few shakes of feathers, it slid off our backs.
Now come the tide of change, I bide you adieu, with all the blessings I could summon.
I am ever so so thankful. What had passed, the lessons learned, the insights gained through the inspiration of our to and fro could never happened without you and me.
It is time, to let go, so that both of us could soar to new heights.
Neither of us wants a lasso around our neck.
LOL.
The funny part is, how similar are we two in some ways.
Maybe that is how things work. Polls apart in some ways, yet deep within, so similar.
One.
The beautiful thing about this is that actually, we are all one, yet there are just certain people or circumstances within our life that we are able to feel it more deeply.
Love you, my dear friend. Take care, and we both know how blessed we are. We had lived through it laughing and walked a new person.
Remember how we both laughed after the accident, next to that wreck of a car... saying that we finally see the airbags? LOL.........
Why on earth had we ever laughed and wondered about how airbags looked like in the first place? LOL....
Of all things to ponder and curious about.
Friday, February 22, 2013
Saturday, February 9, 2013
Thursday, February 7, 2013
Sunday, February 3, 2013
Imagine Me Without You Akama Miki
love the way she sings, deep feelings and yet the face is not all crumpled....
Friday, February 1, 2013
Floating Lanterns Festival - Yi Peng / Loy Krathong - Chiang Mai, Thailand
Happy Chinese New Year everyone... though this video is not about CNY, but i love the meaning of it.
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Sunday, January 27, 2013
Saturday, January 26, 2013
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Something Good - The Sound of Music 1965
The conditions to be awakened to in the middle of the night, and yet be so peaceful at heart. It is priceless. I thank all the circumstances that had brought forth this condition of my being from the very bottom of my heart.
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Monday, January 21, 2013
Sunday, January 20, 2013
Saturday, January 19, 2013
Friday, January 18, 2013
Thursday, January 17, 2013
The Rose 藤田恵美 emi-fujita
愛你。無論你說我愛你時是從哪個角度而說的。
從任何角度亦不重要。
本來都是一份禮物。
昨晚把心事頭尾全然告訴師姐。她竟說、很好，兩個都有足夠的眀覺。（或者輪流、或者同時）
是呀。而且。我們該那麼深深的感恩法界啊。感恩一切因緣。
Vincent (Starry Starry Night) Don McLean
lol.......... dougie maclean... vs don maclean... i messed up their names...
wondering how come dougie maclean's name sounded so familiar....
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
Dougie McLean.Caledonia
a whiskey of a song.
Found myself crying to it tonight.
"if we should become a stranger, know that it would make me more than sad."
u have gone away before i suddenly know it, never to return, for u r not the same person anymore.
still, none of us had ever been the same anyway. knowing it is one, accepting it on someone i have love and trusted from the bottom of my soul (if there is ever one... LOL).
Had been ready for your departure, but not so soon, not this way.
Once upon a time, i fear change.
Had tried to control my own destiny and took things into my own hands.
As time and maturity goes by, I choose to cling and savor each moment, and leave control in god's hands.
After the last two days, the pain had been so deep, so intense, so sharp, i made up my mind to give up something.
Give up is not the best phrase, but this is the problem about words, they have a limit within themselves (that was why i once contemplated giving up blogging, but still, my love for words prevails.....LOL).
So, now, savor moments as it is, with a calm (not the best word either, but it could do for here and now, there's actually no best word. I know, eat the passion fruit as it is).........
So, now, savor moments as it is, with a calm heart, and let the passion fruit leaves as it goes.
Love you, as much as a person who had still had so many flaws and insecurities and bigoted mind.
But then again, it no longer matters. The person who loved and the person who was loved are no longer the same people anyway.
171 宽容 - 张信哲
半夜吓醒，拿表一看，临晨两点半。
好笑。临晨两点半。
想起这首歌。
梦里的惊恐感觉和颈上麻麻的感觉还在。
那只昆虫也很慌张，我也很慌张。
那时想尽快停车、然后把伏在我颈上怕被风吹走的树叶虫拿下。
因为风力，它伏在颈上的力道大了。
也在抖。
不敢冒冒然把它拨开，感觉到它的害怕。
而我相信昆虫也知道我的怕吧，毕竟就在我颈的大动脉上。
发生了一些事，听了一些话。
刚才上网时忽然觉得能听到这番话太好了。
至少不是高到没人可以告诉我。
曾经想躲起来舔伤口。
但是，真的需要吗？
去见秀凤，另一个谜思。。。
有些觉知对我来说，就像风吹来感觉那么自然。而且也像风吹来那么的偶然（谁知道风几时要吹）。
听在别人耳里却非那样回事。
今天（该说昨天）工作时，那种感觉非常明显，看着整个厂。
忽然醒悟、是它们。
机器们运作时、内里的结构与运作方式、是在每个过程中两秒内把频率提高到超过平时电流的十倍（有正式数据、但不方便透露）。然后这种过程是一天千次。我们有三架机同步行。。。其中一架还是双倍（比普通机再双倍的）。。。。。。
当时心里的声音是，干脆把他们俩载来这里亲身体验，因为它们太明显了。
当每天面对超过电房五六倍的electromagnetic waves, 然后在这种环境下开发明觉。。。。。
但我的迷思是，他问的很对，身体那么紧绷、怎可能感受的到。
傍晚跑去问秀凤时，很沮丧。因为如果像感觉风吹来那么明显的事是我的自我作意出来的。。。。
“事情大条了”！！！！！！！！
今天厂里电脑前。连我的电脑荧幕都会受到外来的电波影响，滋滋闪烁。
电脑的电流和厂的电流完全没交集。
但电脑总因为被磁力影响，而完全不能开机，甚至曾经发现，“排了气”隔夜后，电脑又运作正常。发生太多次，连修理电脑的技术师父，都说，电磁波太强。不用修，排了电后（neutralize) 后，继续用吧。
那时曾和经理开玩笑，电脑尚且如此，那我们人脑怎么办？
但我不曾把这两者连贯起来，它们发生在不同的时空里（两年的前后）直到现在他质疑起。
我不是太阳，太阳被冤枉了，以空性接受。
我毕竟是凡夫，那种被质疑说谎打妄语或自我膨胀的感觉很难受。
在我贪吃的世界里，难过的连饭也吃不下是九级地震的大事。
想说，对！我现在还在消化这事。
反正，我本凡夫。
Saturday, January 12, 2013
願望的盡頭。
願望的盡頭。
是呀，快到了。
好好的，乖乖的，守著戒。
師姐說，真正懂得守戒，那麼連戒也不用想，它會展現在每個當下。
無奈我仍凡人啊師姐。
所以，乖乖的，眀覺得，看着，守着。
不讓貪以身行展之。
發了個好夢。
看了看解夢，懂得這根本就是個 time to say goodbye 的徵兆。
所以，快了，願望的盡頭。
Thursday, January 10, 2013
on wealth, a reminder at the right timing is worth its weigh more than gold.
on our holy journey.
rising above being ruffled....