Thursday, July 17, 2014
蘇打綠 sodagreen -【無眠】國語版 Official Music Video
好爱好爱好爱这首歌。
它的歌词、旋律之动人，能起共鸣的都觉得振动了心旋。
整首歌，振动的最深深处的= = 守着回忆，葬在里面。太深入这首歌的动感时，心疼了。
【曲/史俊威 詞/吳青峰 導演/徐仁峰】
今夜的月光超載太重
照著我一夜哄不成夢
每根頭髮都失眠
天空他究竟在思念誰
是不是都和我一樣
揮不去昨日甜美的細節
才讓今天又淪陷
你現在想著誰 有沒有和我相同的感覺
固執等著誰 卻驚覺已無法倒退
曾經想一起飛 在自己心中蓋了座花園
把你的一切 都種在這個地點
卻像魚 守在裡面
(卻是魚 守在裡面)
(像條魚 守在裡面 守著幻影 葬在裡面)
不管要多少時間多少眼淚多少落空來等待
不管你是不是會回來
其實我也不明白 為什麼如此傻傻地期盼
你是我僅有的愛
你現在想著誰 有沒有和我相同的感覺
固執等著誰 卻驚覺已無法倒退
曾經想一起飛 在自己心中蓋了座花園
把你的一切 都種在這個地點
像條魚 守在裡面
守著幻影 葬在裡面
Wednesday, July 16, 2014
Monday, June 30, 2014
该怎么办
我不要的，我不要。
勿打扰。
我想要的，也只是玩耍而已。所以连我自己都不认真对待我想要的。
因为，随风而逝的一切，不值得那整场上上下下的情绪故事情节。
完全不想踏入。
有欲望，又如何？转身离去散散心，片刻后依然好汉一条。
就这样过了。
他曾经说过我自制力惊人。说到底可能沸点太高吧。
不到那个点，不会失控。
奇怪，失控却又与性爱没有太大关系。
奇怪，失控了，却从未逾越那最后防线。怪怪的。
勿打扰。
我想要的，也只是玩耍而已。所以连我自己都不认真对待我想要的。
因为，随风而逝的一切，不值得那整场上上下下的情绪故事情节。
完全不想踏入。
有欲望，又如何？转身离去散散心，片刻后依然好汉一条。
就这样过了。
他曾经说过我自制力惊人。说到底可能沸点太高吧。
不到那个点，不会失控。
奇怪，失控却又与性爱没有太大关系。
奇怪，失控了，却从未逾越那最后防线。怪怪的。
Friday, June 13, 2014
Evanescence - My Immortal (Rock Version)
suddenly found myself missing degree uni times....
miss u guys. take care everyone... all the best to all of you!!!!
Daniel Powter - Bad Day (Official Music Video)
Let the umbrella had a chance to come into our life. Then we can share the sun shine together when it comes out.
Thursday, June 12, 2014
Christina Perri - A Thousand Years [Official Music Video]
I have the MP3 of this song, but i realized i really enjoy watching the video itself.
Miss having youtube music on my speakers, thanks to my housemate and everything, it is finally here. ^^
Hopefully, circumstances would allow me to go on in Kampar. But then again, I realized this is where I wish to be for now, no longing for anywhere else somehow.
Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are [OFFICIAL VIDEO]
Absolutely love to pamper myself with this love song. LOL.
Why not? It's just like having an ice cream for mind.
Not yet understand the meaning of meaningless indulgence. So till then, hey yo love songs.
Tuesday, April 29, 2014
Sunday, January 12, 2014
Flashmob Flash Mob - Ode an die Freude ( Ode to Joy ) Beethoven Symphony...
still love this piece to pieces....
sighing blissfully.....
Friday, January 10, 2014
Sunday, January 5, 2014
the beauty of uncertainty...
Mind the gap. That was the line i saw in the book, daring greatly. Then, at the meditation retreat Mr Patrick mentioned that line as well.
It's a beautiful thing to be mindful of our lives, and how we are actually living it.
No, I don't mean how we thought we are living it, but how we are living it.
That's where the gap comes in.
Interestingly, it took a long time for the understanding to kick in, what I thought is not actually what is really going on.
Till this very day, there is still a space I try to retain between what I thought vs what is actually happening.
As time goes by, experiences happened, and all those, the space is getting more crucial, much more important, and in fact, life saving, blimey.
There is this fact of uncertainty, that it could go "wrong", why that "", because what went wrong might not be wrong, but it is beyond what our mind decides as right, hence wrong. In reality, it might not be wrong after all, just beyond expectations, limits of our minds, and also beyond recognition. Hence, just beyond.
There is this deep seated fear when the slight hint of uncertainty would start to lift its veil and be able to catch a glimpse of it. This fear is only there when one is near the edge of ones comfort zone, or, already outside of it.
Within the comfort zone, well, we always would think the reason we are not feeling as happy as we thought we should is because things aren't still going the way we had planned. Hence all our efforts and energies would be diverted towards more effort in trying to make things right. We thought they are all within our grasp and control. Interesting turn of life, don't you think so? Cheers.
It's a beautiful thing to be mindful of our lives, and how we are actually living it.
No, I don't mean how we thought we are living it, but how we are living it.
That's where the gap comes in.
Interestingly, it took a long time for the understanding to kick in, what I thought is not actually what is really going on.
Till this very day, there is still a space I try to retain between what I thought vs what is actually happening.
As time goes by, experiences happened, and all those, the space is getting more crucial, much more important, and in fact, life saving, blimey.
There is this fact of uncertainty, that it could go "wrong", why that "", because what went wrong might not be wrong, but it is beyond what our mind decides as right, hence wrong. In reality, it might not be wrong after all, just beyond expectations, limits of our minds, and also beyond recognition. Hence, just beyond.
There is this deep seated fear when the slight hint of uncertainty would start to lift its veil and be able to catch a glimpse of it. This fear is only there when one is near the edge of ones comfort zone, or, already outside of it.
Within the comfort zone, well, we always would think the reason we are not feeling as happy as we thought we should is because things aren't still going the way we had planned. Hence all our efforts and energies would be diverted towards more effort in trying to make things right. We thought they are all within our grasp and control. Interesting turn of life, don't you think so? Cheers.
long road home
Kinda faraway from home at the moment....
That home I meant was actually physical traditional home. You know, the one where our parents, dogs, siblings are.
Years ago, I had come to think that home is where the people my heart resides.
It used to be my parents, till one day I fell in love..... then, one day I fell out of love...
Ever since the falling ins and outs, I got lost. There is a saying somewhere, I am not sure of the source anymore, anything that could be lost was never yours in the first place. It was but a myth, a dream, an illusion.
So yeah, home is not with parents, nor with people whom I had once passionately loved, then one day........
I was told that the answer was within all this while, the answers that I had looked so hard for outwardly, ever afraid of missing it if I dare so much of glanced the wrong way, was actually within me all this while.
There is a catch though, I would have to witness it for myself to know the fact for myself that the answer is within, and that it is true and valid to me myself. Therefore, I am currently on this journey. Somewhat like how people would call it, soul searching, journey within so on so forth.
Taking an out from the so call norms of life to do this thing. Honestly, I am feeling kinda lost, and honestly, I am enjoying feeling lost, am I making sense? I hope I am, I know what I said makes perfect sense for myself.
A dear friend asked me, without a car wouldn't you find it challenging, as you are so used to having one at your convenience all this while. My first answer was, I am already living next to the range, I just need to look out of the balcony, or window, and I would catch a glimpse of the hills' greenery, the trees shisha-ing in the wind, the reflection of the colorful clouds on the surface of the lakes.... I am already in the place where I felt best inside out. I wouldn't wish to be in any other place at all, so, why a car? Not now, maybe one day, but not now.
Today when I hugged the bear I bought for myself as I walked home from Tesco, I found myself thanking thanking and thanking so hard for all, everything, and above all, the bear in my arms. It's the first ever teddy I bought for myself. The first. Others were gifts, not that they meant any less, but somehow this bear felt much more special.
First, it had lost an eye. Somehow all my soft toys would come to loose an eye as time goes by, don't ask me how or why, beats me too. So yeah, when I saw bear without one eye, I was like, this is my teddy, it's meant for me.
Two, It's huge, 10inch to be exact (at least that was the description on the tag). For a bear this size, usually it would be hundred bucks more (or much higher, depending on quality and brand). The first time I asked for the price (somehow, no price tag), I was told that it is 59.90, and I apologized, saying it is over my budget (can you imagine my idea of it was around 30 bucks?). I left teddy back on its rack, alone, the last bear, and without a price tag. Then, I found that I couldn't stop thinking about it, and then I was like, I don't care anymore, bear is coming back with me. Today, I went. Again, no price tag. So, I went to the counter, and they pointed me to the lady in charge of prices. She checked, and I appealed about the missing eye. Somehow, by some miraculous turn, the price they gave me was RM34.32 ,with an indication of "last piece stock" on the tag. I broke into a huge smile, and felt like a big kid being handed over her new year present, literally. So yeah, I hugged bear hard all the way home.
Third. Somehow, I felt connected when I hugged him for the first time, my heart tugged. Weird, but true.
So yeah, I had with me a huge bear!!!! Woohoo..... and a long way away from home(the traditional one). Yet, somehow closer than I ever was.
Gosh, it feels damn good to be blogging again. I miss writing. I don't care anymore, I would just write. It feels damn right.
That home I meant was actually physical traditional home. You know, the one where our parents, dogs, siblings are.
Years ago, I had come to think that home is where the people my heart resides.
It used to be my parents, till one day I fell in love..... then, one day I fell out of love...
Ever since the falling ins and outs, I got lost. There is a saying somewhere, I am not sure of the source anymore, anything that could be lost was never yours in the first place. It was but a myth, a dream, an illusion.
So yeah, home is not with parents, nor with people whom I had once passionately loved, then one day........
I was told that the answer was within all this while, the answers that I had looked so hard for outwardly, ever afraid of missing it if I dare so much of glanced the wrong way, was actually within me all this while.
There is a catch though, I would have to witness it for myself to know the fact for myself that the answer is within, and that it is true and valid to me myself. Therefore, I am currently on this journey. Somewhat like how people would call it, soul searching, journey within so on so forth.
Taking an out from the so call norms of life to do this thing. Honestly, I am feeling kinda lost, and honestly, I am enjoying feeling lost, am I making sense? I hope I am, I know what I said makes perfect sense for myself.
A dear friend asked me, without a car wouldn't you find it challenging, as you are so used to having one at your convenience all this while. My first answer was, I am already living next to the range, I just need to look out of the balcony, or window, and I would catch a glimpse of the hills' greenery, the trees shisha-ing in the wind, the reflection of the colorful clouds on the surface of the lakes.... I am already in the place where I felt best inside out. I wouldn't wish to be in any other place at all, so, why a car? Not now, maybe one day, but not now.
Today when I hugged the bear I bought for myself as I walked home from Tesco, I found myself thanking thanking and thanking so hard for all, everything, and above all, the bear in my arms. It's the first ever teddy I bought for myself. The first. Others were gifts, not that they meant any less, but somehow this bear felt much more special.
First, it had lost an eye. Somehow all my soft toys would come to loose an eye as time goes by, don't ask me how or why, beats me too. So yeah, when I saw bear without one eye, I was like, this is my teddy, it's meant for me.
Two, It's huge, 10inch to be exact (at least that was the description on the tag). For a bear this size, usually it would be hundred bucks more (or much higher, depending on quality and brand). The first time I asked for the price (somehow, no price tag), I was told that it is 59.90, and I apologized, saying it is over my budget (can you imagine my idea of it was around 30 bucks?). I left teddy back on its rack, alone, the last bear, and without a price tag. Then, I found that I couldn't stop thinking about it, and then I was like, I don't care anymore, bear is coming back with me. Today, I went. Again, no price tag. So, I went to the counter, and they pointed me to the lady in charge of prices. She checked, and I appealed about the missing eye. Somehow, by some miraculous turn, the price they gave me was RM34.32 ,with an indication of "last piece stock" on the tag. I broke into a huge smile, and felt like a big kid being handed over her new year present, literally. So yeah, I hugged bear hard all the way home.
Third. Somehow, I felt connected when I hugged him for the first time, my heart tugged. Weird, but true.
So yeah, I had with me a huge bear!!!! Woohoo..... and a long way away from home(the traditional one). Yet, somehow closer than I ever was.
Gosh, it feels damn good to be blogging again. I miss writing. I don't care anymore, I would just write. It feels damn right.
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